Tell me about the forest, you once called home

Yes Black Angus, the place that if you don't feel like dying when you're done, you're probably doing it wrong. Or at least that was my experience for the first time. We went out to eat today after Brittany got her hair touched up and seriously from the time you sit down until you are brought the bill they just shovel obscene amounts of food at you. And if it's your first time there, they give you a plate of deep fried zucchini (without telling you, so I thought they gave us more than we ordered =P). So after I clean the newly deposited plaque from my arteries and have a small gall stone child from all the fat from fried foods I should feel better.

In other news Rainfurrest is this weekend? Yes indeed it is. I won't know more than maybe two people there but I do enjoy the hotels atrium, indoor forests are awesome :D



And haha, journal entry. That is all.

Just a random musing that popped into my head while I was listening to music.
From Babylon back to Babylon baby
We destroy the world everyday
Self determination not a right for the free.
Yet for a price, dignity you can buy
A little bit of my society, straight off e-bay...

Hmm, we had a dust storm today. Always fun. Argued some politics today, think I actually made a mindless infantrymen stop and think. It seemed like he was suddenly not as proud of his wanton destruction as he thought. I'm proud of him.

And a tasty morsel for all my like minded friends to ingest, Buy Nothing Day. Google it, support it, make it more than one day. You're all my heroes.

Curry Curry Curry Curry..
Today is Indian day at the chow hall which equals awesome. I love Indian food =P

Awesome website

http://www.fuh2.com/index.php Fuck you, H2!

...and no not hydrogen molecules =P
Which for the record are awesome, whereas Humvees are most definitely not.

What once made America a great nation is now foreshadowed by bondage chains casted over the country, the acceptance and freedoms every human has a right to as a sentient being have been sacrificed for "safety" and "the greater good"..but who is it that's voices are satiating the masses into believing these lies? It surprises me that people listen to the lies of they're elected officials, even if these people have shown they act in their best interest not the people. They deny people the services the need, and promote extreme capitalism because it further gilds their pockets. If someone was robbing you but said it was for your good would you believe them? Then why are people letting politicians get away with this.
The constitution states that when a system of government has proven itself inadequate and does not act in the benefit of the people it is the peoples duty to remedy this problem. But Joe America is satiated with words like terrorist and security. He has let things like the patriot act and the homegrown terrorist act be passed and held over his head like a hammer. Sure they sound like good things, but I wonder how many people are truly aware of what they are, let us take a second to review:
The Patriot act:many parts of the legislation take away checks on law enforcement and alphabet soup agencies like the FBI. Without a warrant and without probable cause, the FBI now has the power to access your most private medical records, your library records, and your student records and can prevent anyone from telling you it was done. It shelters federal agents engaged in illegal surveillance without a court order from criminal prosecution if they are following orders of high Executive Branch officials. Using an over-broad definition of terrorism that could cover some protest tactics effectively taking away your right to voice you opinion on all levels. -!-Allowing for the sampling and cataloging of innocent Americans' genetic information without court order and without consent-!-. Permits searches, wiretaps and surveillance of United States citizens on behalf of foreign governments - including dictatorships and human rights abusers. And the worst part is people let congress pass this act with virtually no debate in the hysterity that followed the 9-11 tragedy. Without debate..or input from the people who understood more than it's name.
The Violent Radicalization and Homegrown Terrorism Prevention Act of 2007: This one is the real kingpin that the patriot act was the precursor to, it is the next step in a totalitarian government. This bills definition of "extremism" and "terrorism" are so vague that they encompass many types of protest strategies used by the American people to express themselves. This will inevitably lead to the unconstitutional restrictions of free speech and belief not to say the restrictions on peoples actions and the criminalization of dissent. In this bill the term "ideologically based violence" means the use, planned use, or threatened use of force OR violence by a group. The world force in there is where we need to be concerned as it does not exclude non-violent type protest like what Ghandi used, and could be found in practice as server as physical violence for the purpose of convicting someone of terrorism. Do you think of Ghandi as a terrorist? Because in the definitions used by this bill he is..isn't that messed up?
America the free..or so they say, this country is becoming so secular that it frightens me, did you know that Bush is pushing for deportation hearings to happen out of the publics view so that they're easier to get people forced out of this country? Since when did the motto of America become give me your indulgence and decadence? We have a duty to this world, not as police, but rather humanitarians as a well off country to do what we can to relieve the suffering of people, not cause more with war and blood shed. It is time to usher in an era of compassion and tolerance.
PLEASE educate yourselves on what congress and the president are doing, we need to as a people preserve the freedoms that all human beings should have the right to. As brothers and sisters, as sentient beings of the mother earth.

Let us contemplate an event that can not escape media attention, it's the same illness but a different area of affliction. What illness do I speak of? Why over consumption of course. The residents of the greater Atlanta area have discovered to their concern that they are losing water within their reserve. A lesson in over consumption, if a bit late, seems to be afflicting these citizens. But their concerns are not on the resources or ecosystem they are destroying itself, no, but rather the rate at which they pay for water (funny how nothing ever matters to people until it hits their pocket book). This nation, as well as most of the world, would do a great deal of good to themselves if they realize the worlds supplies are only so finite, they can and will, indeed, run out if over used. If you keep taxing them and taxing them, eventually all your left with is a nice muddy puddle and a destroyed ecosystem, all to satiate the masses. Now various half minded but full short sighted solutions can be expected, the righteousness of man must prevail over the "lower" forms of life right?...again irony in the thought process that originally created this problem. But what is a proposed fix to this issue? Destroying the habitat of endangered species of sturgeon and fresh water clams upstream more so the masses can have their water and Gatorade. I mean, after all, what are a few species existence when compared to this temporary problem of man? (note the sarcasm there). You'd think we've learned by now the damages of eradicating species from ecosystems.
What people need to do is to learn to stop raping the earths natural resources. What did you think was going to happen as you poured gallon after gallon down the drain while leaving the water running, filling your pool, and forgetting to turn your irrigation system off. It's manifesting all over, the problems people thought they would just leave for their children to solve are beginning to afflict them. So let us watch as they treat the symptoms and not the malady once again, give those involved a temporary concern for the environment and wait for shortly after the drought passes just to watch as people begin wasting water with just as much or more zeal than before. We really need a change in the way or society operates, especially with population numbers being such that they are...

Mother nature needs a voice..lend her yours..practice and advocate sustainable lifestyles

Q. What is your salad dressing of choice?
A. Shitake Ginger

Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
A. Pita Pit!

Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
A. Vegetal (An all vegetarian Asian food place in Seattle)

Q. On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant?
A. Twice tax, plus or minus depending on service

Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
A. Pizza

Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
A. Gobs of cheese

Q. What do you like to put on your toast?
A. nothing, mmm burnt bread

TECHNOLOGY

Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
A. One ring to...yeah, LoTR elvish stuff

Q. How many televisions are in your house?
A. (house?) 1

BIOLOGY

Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. Left

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
A. Does my pride count? haha

Q. When was the last time you had a cavity?
A. Right now.

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
A. A box of paper

Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
A. No

BULL[CRAP]OLOGY

Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
A. I don't think so, but my morbid curiosity...

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
A. Christopheles Mephistio ha!

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
A. Dark green

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
A. yes, stickers, mold, packaging, foam, my teeth are sharp and sometimes I bite off wrappers

Q. Have you ever saved someones life?
A. Maybe? I don't know, who knows how events would play out if we don't interfere

Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
A. Maybe? Same as above

DAREOLOGY

Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
A. Sure, I'd do it for 5 lol

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
A. Maybe...depends, I like learning to/playing music so I'd have to be desperate

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
A. Hells yeah

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
A. Yeah, as long as it wasn't pornographic

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
A. I've done it because I was hungry before..

Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
A. No

DUMBOLOGY

Q: What is in your left pocket?
A. My I.D.

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
A. Is Hitler a good person? To some, but to me; No

Q: Do have a hardwood or carpet floor in your house?
A: Right now I live in a shack with concrete floors

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A: Stand

Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: Yeah, as long as they weren't too dirty

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
A: One

Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
A: About two years ago?

Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: A ninja, but if that doesn't work out, a Vet

LASTOLOGY

Q: Friend you talked to?
A. Brittany (she's my best-est friend)

Q: Last person who called you?
A: I has no phone, but a long time ago, Brittany

Q: Person you hugged?
A: Brittany

FAVORITOLOGY

Q: Number?
A: 13

Q: Season?
A: Autumn

CURRENTOLOGY

Q: Missing someone?
A: A lot

Q: Mood?
A: Blargh

Q: Listening to?
A. Wo Bist Du? -Ramstein

Q: Watching?
A. Nothing

Q: Worrying about?
A. Stuff?

RANDOMOLOGY

Q: First place you went this morning?
A: Food

Q: What can you not wait to do?
A: Be with Brittany, for good

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A: Seven Swords

Q: Do you smile often?
A: Yeah, I've been told I do

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Mostly, unless you're a "my daddy did it so it's good enough for me" type, even then I'm curtious.

It seems to be a sad strange world we live in where the decision to abstain from killing is perceived as so negative (this is mainly only of certain people for the age you live, like in modern U.S. society; Arabs). I can understand that a lot of the reactions I get are from Army people who always ask why I joined if I think that way; though these beliefs crystallized after wards. I apologize profusely and yet not at all if for some reason you are offended, ostracized, or sensitized by my voice. "but you're in the army, you have to kill the bad guys" sorry ms. mann, life is never so simple as that, nothing so black and white. Here you would think people of age would realize how gray the world truly is, bad and good are your own concepts, concepts I will refute, there is simply one side or another or another that is all, just different thoughts; no divine right or great justice. Sorry god IS on your side, and apparently IS on the others too, why do people think such a transcendental, all loving entity they claim it to be would support one of its creations in the destruction of another...oh yeah that's right YOUR right and they're not...people just don't get it, you're so blind to the world passing around you, open your eyes and see it for what it truly is. "I joined the army because I wanted to kill someone" seriously what type of mentally derelict pieces of shit is society bringing into existence these days? what do these people contribute to anything? I want to murder someone, yeah...the same way I wish people like you never came into existence, you my friend and the perpetuator of suffering in the world. Just a few thoughts to think about, please; I insist good sir...

RULES:
1. Put Your itunes, windows media plyer etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name

If someone says "is this okay?" you say,
"Supernova goes pop" Powerman 5000

How would you describe yourself?
"Caribbean Blue" Enya

What do you like in a guy/girl?
"Till death do us Part" Skylar Blue (I like people that will stick with you always)

How do you feel today?
"I F**king Hate You" Godsmack (When referring to the army)

What is your life's purpose?
"Headcleaner" Einsturzende Neubauten

What is your motto?
"Wishmaster" Nightwish

What do your friends think of you?
"Good girl yes, Bad girl no" Group X

What do you think of your parents?
"Lament for Oakenshield" LoTRO soundtrack

What do you think about very often?
"The Bonus Plan" GWAR

What is 2 + 2?
"Awaken" Disturbed

What do you think of your best friend?
"She is my sin" Nightwish

What do you think of the person you like?
"Only time" Enya

What is your life story?
"The gates of Rock 'n Roll" VAST

What do you want to be when you grow up?
"Tainted Love" Marilyn Manson

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
"Baptism of Blood" Malice Mizer

What will you dance to at your wedding?
"Change" Deftones

What will they play at your funeral?
"Deep Folk Song" Deep Forest (lol, it's such a happy energetic song, people must be happy at my funeral)

What is your hobby/interest?
"Teacup" Gackt (I do like tea)

What is your biggest fear?
"Buried Alive by Love" Him

What is your biggest secret?
"Girls, be ambitious" Miyavi

What do you think of your friends?
"No Shelter" Rage Against the Machine

What will you post this as?
"Here's to the night" Eve 6

"Just like our organs, our anger is a part of us.
When we are angry, we have to go back to ourselves
and take good care of our anger" --Thich Nhat Hanh, Taming the Tiger Within

Some days you just notice things a little more, today was one of those days for me. While riding in the car with one of my friends I was noting how angry he was getting at the smallest things, and thought to myself simply 'why?'. I think us westerners have too great an attachment to anger, we've been brought up with the thought that a righteous anger is good, so long as it has a cause it can help you stay to your values. Why do some people need to remember that they are angry to remember things? I'm an activist, I do what I can for the environment as well as other things, I do this out of love because that's what love does. I love the things my ideology is made up of, that's why I protect it. I don't do these things because I'm angry people pollute the environment, if that were my only motivation what good progress could I make? This type of anger in motivation can only lead to angry progress. Wouldn't you agree that it is much better to turn that negative energy into a more positive one and create a better end?

Anger is like a darkness, it clouds your mind. By using an angry motivation all you are doing is fighting a darkness with a darkness, and what is the point of this? If you can't consider all your options how can you create a joyous outcome? The world does not need more darkness, it needs more compassion. Though as I said above, anger is not a bad thing, it is neither good nor bad to me. I am a firm believer in changing this negative type of energy into a more positive one and using that energy to achieve some sort of goal I have. Then again I could just be rambling lol.

Thought of the day:
"Like a beautiful flower, full of colour but without scent, are the empty words of him who does not act accordingly."

I deceided that a lot of my entries were too angsty/what not so I deleted them. I'm going to be using my journal instead as a way of contimplating things and rambling to myself. Somethings should amuse while others bore I'm sure, hopefully it's not too bad =P